The undeniable truth!

This week has been a difficult week for me. But it times of complete brokenness I have found that the Lord tends to do some of His best work! Praise God for that! I can say that He has been doing His best work the whole time I have been here in South Africa because I have been broken down by Him numerous times and today at church the Lord spoke and a true awakening came! John 9 speaks of the blind man that was healed by Jesus spitting in the dirt to create mud. He put it on the blind mans eyes and he was healed. "I was blind and now i can see" are the amazing words that he spoke, amazing words that we have probably all heard so many times throughout our lives. But these words have taken on a new meaning for me. You go on and read about the joy he felt after being healed and how he kept explaining to people that he was blind and now could see but everyone around him just kept asking, "how?" and "who is this man? Is he a sinner?". The healed man just kept saying, "I don't know! All I know is that I was blind but now I see!" I have read this story more times than I can count and never have I seen what I saw today! The man was not focused on how he was healed or how he got to where he was, he was overjoyed because he was healed! This may not seem significant to you but to me it is everything! Over the past year I have been wondering what the heck God has been doing! I was wondering why He was leading me into things that I was so fearful of. Now when I look back I see how many miracles the Lord did in my life even though I had to go through such brokenness. I am a changed person, a new creation! But there are so many times, like every day, when I focus on how I go to this point. I focus on the bumpy roads that I had to take to get here and I am not focusing on the fact that I am healed. I  ask the lord why He did what He did and i try to understand it. I think more like the Pharisees asking how it all happened when I should be the healed man rejoicing that I was just healed! The blind man didn't sit down with Jesus and ask him, "why did you just use mud to heal me? Why did you heal me on the sabbath?" NO! He focused on the undeniable truth! He focused on Jesus! I have been woken up and now see that I don't know how I will be changed, I don't know how I will survive some things that are ahead, I don't know how I will get through the bumpy roads that lead to my future, but I do know the undeniable truth! Jesus Christ loves me, Jennifer lynn Lewis! He died on the cross for me voluntarily! It is time for me to stop dwelling on what is in my past and why God did what He did but focus on the fact that today I am a new creation! Today I focus on the beauty and renewal Jesus Christ has blessed me with! I encourage you to stop thinking about the horrible roads to come or the ones you already went through and start focusing your eyes on Jesus, start focusing on the undeniable truth, because some how He brings complete joy and healing in a way you never thought was possible! He is faithful and LOVES you! Stop doubting it and believe it!